23 October 2012
10th entry, Gstaad
Happy feelings flood my psyche. And they do so for several reasons. On one hand have I sold a painting of the “Yellow Summer” series to a bank. On the other hand do I rejoice in the creation of the sound paintings, that demand to be put on canvas in a flowing and orderly fashion. The dynamics of color, form, and music are in constant motion and create a joyous realm.
A lipless smile is my constant companion these days. These are the days of my life as an artist that are full of joy and contentment. I do not take them for granted because over the years I have experienced many moments of insecurity, uncertainty, and doubt.
It is quite a challenge to admit to myself that I do need the approval and recognition of society. I know though that this will be a dead end. Well, I call it one of the challenges of life.
As a human being and an artist at that I do constantly reflect on myself, my work, my environment, and my fellow human beings. I question myself, I feel myself, I move. I am living a life that does not live up to the expectation of others and I am doing this to the fullest.
And I wouldn’t want to have it any other way.